I will try to bring it up with him... I'm sure we will at least touch on it next session because we ended on such a panic note last week... I was more grounded at the end of the session, but I'm guessing he will want to talk about it when I'm not dissociating and panicked...

I might just put all of this into an email to myself so I can refer back to it when I see him... tho I have a bad habit of skipping the topics that make me feel most vulnerable, and this would qualify...

that scared little girl is back, and it's kinda scary because I associate her with being a protector... or the way I feel when I really need help and feel vulnerable. she is not an alter, just a different side of me that seems to only come out when I really need something... ugh...