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Originally Posted by spow
I'm just embarking on my recovery process and it is difficult to even get my head around it. The fact that you have recovered enough to restore your weight is a wonderful achievement. As for being stuck in the behaviours, many people say that behaviours are learned. Perhaps developing new constructive behaviours may help override the old ones? Also, when I'm badly stuck in an ED behaviour like bingeing, I find that a week-long holiday helps. It doesn't have to be anything fancy, just something to get you out of your norms to break your routine and try to break bad habits. Even staying over at a friend's for a week might help.
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Thank you for the encouragement. I'm stuck in a horrible bulimic phase and with that, I seem to fail at the self care. Whenever I try to do something to better or nurture myself (that doesn't involve food), I somehow have a hard time internalizing the positive benefits. Ex: I took up running to help me quit smoking ( an ED behavior) and to get the stress-relief benefits. Now I run 25 miles a week while I continue to smoke/purge. Now I know this is terrible health wise, but in my head its "okay, now i know I can run and smoke and push my body to the limit and it won't break". Gah. Sorry, I am just so stuck. It's a good thing I'm in therapy
