I want to be able to write and say how i feel right now, but i can't because i just don't know. It seems that my mood this morning was short lived.. I was, Erm, normal, if ever that's the right word to use.
But my mind has been racing with all sorts of thoughts, and my brain on auto pilot.
Since realising that I'm suffering with BPD I've felt more alone than ever, or at least it feels like that right now.

I'm very limited to who i feel i can trust and talk to about it and even those i thought i could dont seem to be there at all.

I'm also worried that because I've not been professionally diagnosed that I'm maybe a bit mad, and that its all in my head.
I don't really want to come on here and be someone that just moans but i have nowhere else to turn right now

Massive sigh