Aww Hun ((hugs))

You are most def not an awful person, you are a great mum.

So you hurt yourself.. We all have, you didn't let the kids see.

I'm so sorry you was in so much pain. You could of pm or emailed me.

As for the course go for it. What do you have to lose... Don't put so much pressure on yourself to complete it tho. Great if you do and will be celebrating with you, but if you don't then you can try another.

((Hug)) thinking of you