i originally joined this forum in hopes of helping other people. now i very much need the help of others i don't know what to do

i was prescribed prozac about two years ago and about a month ago i stopped taking it because i was going through a rough break up and i felt like the prozac was making me feeling the sad emotions more (weird, i know that it makes me "feel more") i also take vyvanse for ADHD and when i take that i have no emotions, and i felt like the prozac cancelled out the "no emotions" part of vyvanse so i started taking the vyvanse alone.

anyways last night it started really getting to me. my ex-boyfriend obviously wants nothing to do with me, i can't muster up any motivation to do well in school, i just can't bring myself to care. (i'm a junior in college) and i feel worthless, like i am not amounting to anything i won't ever.

my ex chased me for months before i finally gave in and we started dating, and after 2 years together he ends it. because of my problems with depression it was too much for him. since we broke up my problems have only gotten worse and he's aware of that, and is probably relieved that he doesn't have to deal with me anymore. i feel disgusting that i drove him off with my problems, it makes me feel like no one will ever love me. i'm not an extraordinary student, i don't have any outstanding talent, the one person who once thought the world of me now won't even speak to me.

all these emotions came flooding in last night, and then this morning i found out that a friend of mine passed away. he wasn't a BEST friend, but he was a classmate and friend nonetheless, and it was like putting a cherry on top of me having this horrible flood of depression.

if you read all of this, thank you. i just have some questions now

--do you think i should start taking the prozac again? if i do, would it be smart to up my dosage? (i was only taking 20mg before and i feel that my depression may require more)

--any other advice to help me through this? anything would be appreciated