I am ill, it is not fair. I want my jane to make me take better care of self. Eat, drink....walk. I want someone here to act in that way for me. I think I need to discuss with hubby. I wish I could have the kind of memory that can re-hear every word and expression. I with I had the kind of memory that could see the images clearly still in my mind. They are there, but not like when they happened. Yeah, Jane is gone. My love will remain for her because gone is just somewhere else and some day I will learn. I do miss her, what a cliche. Missing Jane. Well, I quess I mean that I want someone else in my life who loves me like that. ERRRRRR