Dear T,
Did I just quit? Are you good with that after all this time? Did I really fail at one more thing? It's all too much and I don't know how to keep doing this anymore. I don't really know where to go from here and I am very sorry for everything. I'm just so incredibly tired of this constant struggle. You mention the light at the end of the tunnel and that there is hope. Then out of the blue FIL actually says that the light at the end of the tunnel is the destruction heading my way. Coincidence I know but there's too much of this stuff and I am so tired of fighting the inevitable. What's the point of any of this? All of this pain and struggling to get free and in the end I will just fail anyway. I'm sorry.