As a general rule I try not to cause anyone pain, but what I mean is I should have felt angry that she didn't take of her loans and she let them go to the point they defaulted. She didn't use the money that she got from her college friends gave us for rent staying here for a few months to pay for the loan like I told her to. The last payment she made was over a year ago. I should have been mad at her about that, but I wasn't. I remember being angry at myself instead for not making sure this was taken care of. I know logically that is not right, but how do you change the way you feel?