Thank you.......I am taking some time for myself right now. I have friends and family but sometimes I think they get sick of hearing me. I do look for some advice from people that are on the outside looking in. I spent alot of time thinking that I was the one that was crazy. I guess when you have someone telling you that you're insecure and crazy for thinking a certain way you can start to doubt yourself. I know I am entitled to my feelings and not have a man dismiss them as foolish. I am not a jealous person but this man had such a suspicious nature and sneakiness about him that it made me feel like he was hiding something constantly.
Anyway, I am strong and independant and raised my son alone. He is 22 now. I don't need a man to feel whole. I would like a relationship because its my time. However, I am not ready to date anyone right now. I'm still feeling unsure of myself on some level and sad at times. You're also right about missing the companionship and having someone to come home to......the little things. I wish I knew how long it takes for that feeling to go away.....right now its still good days and bad days. I haven't had any contact at all with him for almost a month so that helps.

Again, thank you for taking the time to respond......