I can relate. It is ungodly painful knowing that we are on our own. If you miss the deadline of having your needs met, well, not it's yours. T's usually avoid anything to do with the dependency word, which makes the neediness worse. I wish you hope for your future, but hold none for myself. I realize it is my fault, but I am sick of it, just so sick of it. I hope you are coping better than I am, (((tiger)))))