I'm not currently on medication, Leed, although I was, they took me off quickly because I didn't seem to need them. They were SSRIs for the anxiety I didn't know I had.
They won't see me earlier because I'm apparently coping well. Laugh and smile, no one will ever see past that, doctors too I guess.
That's horrible to hear you ignored like that, I'm glad you spoke up and I hope things are better now. Thanks for the kind words.

Depression was a diagnosis that didn't stick, Open Eyes. As was BPD,dissociative disorders, schizophrenia and literally everything else. So they stopped talking to me emotionally and engaged me on an intellectual observation of my personality, so depression was ignored in the place of constantly telling me to go out and enjoy things, despite that I couldn't get past an agonising boredom.
I've always felt empty, I think. It feels like I've always been this way but I just don't know.