None of what you said makes you a monster. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You did the best you could. You didn't know what was going on. You'll always think about them because they are the biggest part of your life. Missing important people is not a bad thing.
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Me- SzA
Husband- Bipolar 1
Daughter- mood disorder+
Comfortable broken and happy
"So I don't know why I'm tongue tied At the wrong time when I need this."- P!nk
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