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Originally Posted by greyclouds
Something some one said about recovery is it worth it?
Do you know who you are with out this illness cos I sure as hell don't.
I don't want this... I hate it. But who am I with out it?
I don't know who I am?
I don't know if I would make my friends laugh any more if I was "normal" as such.
Would they still need me, or want to help me?
Would I still need them?
Who in here has changed to the "normal" side.
Are you still you but with out the hurt?
How do you know?
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I didn't know I had BPD until a year ago...until that point I thought I was abnormal there was no "normal" so to me everything was a big shock when I got diagnosed. Still is...I was a person with friends a job I could make people laugh by doing funny stuff now. I am out of work with less friends I can count on my hands I believe I have 1 true friend out of it all. I need him as much as he needs me. BPD has changed me I am not the same as I once was the meds have made me a freak. I have wanted it all at one point now all I want it all gone to disappear to disappear into the herds of people. I don't want to resign as a person but just a figment of someones imagination it makes me feel very sad. But I guess this just what happens everything just comes crashing to a halt.