I know that I was abused by my parents, gf, and most of my friends. My life has been one rocky road. I come to you in search of some sort of...well...I'm not sure...I know that my night terrors are associated with this. I'm pretty sure that my actions are in some way caused by my life. I have always been defensive...I have hurt a great many people...I am not proud of it. There are so many events in my life that are traumatic. I saw my best friend blow the back of his head off. I've seen death. I have been clinically dead 10 times. I was abused...I just feel so..haunted...Anyone out there have any similar thoughts?