(((kittycat97)))
Firstly, i applaud you for being brave in trying to stand up for yourself, and stopping the abuse.
Secondly, is it possible for you to take your time with the child protection officer/another support worker with these feelings, concerns, and questions...?
To be honest, i dont know how to answer your question about forgiveness, because i a) struggle with it too and b) unsure if this is the right time - in the midst of an investigation into abuse? - to forgive right now...?

I dont know . I am also sorry you are struggling with all of this too...