When I through a table at SKR (my therapist at that time) when I was acting out the memory piece of "Margo" we - SKR and I - were told that it is possible to control those urges and behaviors. On my end since it was my physical body I was the one that was responsible and held accountable for controling what goes on when I am aware and unaware. I had to be aware of what I was feeling at all times. and when I felt the least bit mad and starting to get that floaty far away feeling that is my symptom of when I start to dissociate. and I was resposible for using grounding techniqes and relaxation techniques to ground myself back in full awareness of the present and or hold myself in that area of floaty far away feeling but yet not completely in my la la land where I could not control my behavior when pieces of memories (alters) were replaying.

For SKR's part in the situation she had to talk to me while I was replaying those distructive pieces of memories and so on and help me to stay grounded in the present and help me to develop co consciousness so that I could control my behavior and thoughts with locating the triggers and using grounding and relaxation techniques.

Hnag in there. it does get better.