Thanks Payne - no depression as far as I can tell, it's just hard how my life has changed. Because of the baby I am unale to do so many things I used to like, including sports and my work. Breastfeeding keeps me tied down to a schedule (unable to get away from the baby) and living in a village doesn't help either. I am now trying to wean and get a car, eventually these will probably help slowly, but at the moment it is still difficult.