So i have another therapy appointment tomorrow and well I doubt it will be any more help than the last. Honestly since the last appointment I just feel like I can not live up to what the therapist thinks I can. When we meet I am usually just confused what she wants from me, what I am supposed to talk about and feeling like I'm not trying hard enough at anything she suggests or whatever.

When I mention how over-strained and stressed I am she still seems to encourage me to push myself more when the whole point is I can't and I am already doing it too much and am more looking for suggestions to maybe reduce the strain...not how I need to just work through it and function in spite of it. I think sometimes I take her wording wrong....uhh I suppose tomorrow I should try and mention this to her that I just don't feel it's really going anywhere. But I feel she might just try and say I'm not putting in enough effort or something that I would take personally. I don't know if anything though its not the intention of the therapist it just seems to make me feel more confused, stressed and down on myself.

I just don't think it's working right if therapy has become the thing I dread going to every week.