Hi Razel

It's Sezzie
I'm so with you sister. I'm so sick of the binge and vomit cycle. It brings such a roller coster of emotions. It's seriously bad for a person's health, as I've just literally discovered with my last blood test! I'm feeling really stressed out and very low at the moment. I feel that a lot of people looking at me from the outside would find it hard to believe how desperately sad I feel, just coz things are soooo 'great'. I did give up the binge and vomit cycle for a bit a few months ago, but am now back on the same ole routine. I feel your pain! My body is half attached to the loo. How sexy do I sound? I know all of this is very hard and it does seem like one hell of a trek to get the hell out of, but the only thing that I can see in the whole bulimia thing is what positive purpose I can use its experiences later on in my life. I could possibly help someone else who struggles with it similarly (once I've gotten meself over the whole shebang). I'm positive that I will defeat it. I can't say when, which is certainly the frustrating point! I just hope that I can achieve all that I set out to in life! I have such huge goals and being a vomiter just doesn't do justice to who I want to be. I hope you succeed with your studies. I've had to take a break from mine, sadly. I'm just too sad and sick. I drive around like a maniac binging on food and then finding a place to vomit. My life is hardly worth living as I can see. I just don't care about myself too much and don't really appreciate my body in the way that I should. I'm like yee all, out searching for self-knowledge. I just aint liken the half of what I see at the mo. Things are very slippery. Anyways, I'm sorry I've talked a wee bit too much about meself. Just wanted to let you know gurl that I'm there with you. I understand what the constant struggle is like, but I friggon believe that there is an end to it. It simply is a matter of choice. Horrible words I know. We've just got to find something in life that is much greater than bulimia. I'm sure we can do it. I'm sure we can get past it and into something that's worthwhile.

Love Sezzie!