Dear All

Hi, it's Sezzie.
I'm so frustrated right now! So damned friggon frustrated! For many a reason really, but the one primary reason I will talk about here is that i got the dang friggon hots for one of my therapists. The thing is that it's totally wrong! Totally. He's like twice my age. I always get the hots for these types: people who I just can't go anywhere with and people who are just too old for me. I'm a grave robber, if you like! Anywho, I'm just wondering how to get over this kind of stuff? This is some infatuation that I need to get over now, because this has been so destructive to my therapy! For sure!

I think I either need to get a new one, or just talk to this dude about it openly. I know that it's a 'silly' thing and that the emotions are probably misplaced or whatever. I soooo need to get over it though, coz it's so upsetting to put someone up on a pedestal like that. I feel so low about myself. I feel like I'm the dumb and sick one. Which I am really. How can I ever get better in a relationship like this? I do have to see this man on Monday, so I'm hoping you all have some fab suggestions! I do feel so low about myself in his presence and whenever I think about him. I know that I do put myself down a heck of a lot, and I'm probably better than I give myself credit for. I just feel so crap. I like and envy this guy to a point where it's just wrong. What should I do peoples? What should I say?

I feel so desperately lost and sad and disgusting and just absolutely sick!

Thanks for listening all yee brave people!

Love Sezzie