Smoking really serves several needs--it gives you energy when you are tired, relaxes you when you are stressed & is a good procrastination tool. I quit in my 20's (started when I was 15 when my depressions also started) after having a preemie baby (talk about guilt) due to smoking & drinking while pregnant (had untreated bp).

Then 10 YEARS later I feel into another deep depression & couldn't cope & started smoking again! I smoked for another 10 yrs. then was able to quit once I got on the right meds for my bp. I just didn't need them anymore. It's been about 4 years since I quit & I can't imagine myself smoking now. Also, I used the very low-dose patch for some extra psychological back-up cuz you absolutely are not supposed to smoke when you use those. I think I used them for about a month. It's a wonderful freedom to not smoke--not constatnly thinking about when/where you can smoke, feeling antsy when you can't (like on plane trips). Keep trying!--Suzy