paperdoll,

Hi and welcome!

I'm so sorry to read what you've been going through, and still seem to be going through.

You can't control his actions or thoughts, but remember that THEY'RE WRONG.

Please take this time away from him to seek therapy and some understanding of his actions and your responses to work on gaining a clearer perspective and some self-esteem.

Mental/emotional abuse can be the most damaging and I'm sorry you've suffered it and that you still are. You're not alone.

We're here, but please reach out for help close to you as well...women's support, therapy, etc.

It sounds as though you've become deeply depressed if you think you might be suicidal. Please reach out for help close to you. In the meantime, know we're here and we care.

Again, I'm glad you're here.

KD