I was thinking about my diet after my above post.

I'm 5'5" and I weigh 250. I'm obese.

My diet -

Half & half in my coffee (espresso, equivalent of about two large mugs every day). The rest of the day black tea with a teaspoon of sugar per 8oz.

I don't usually eat breakfast.

Lunch, a sandwich. Sometimes soup or ramen (this is actually not that healthy).

Supper is the square meal. Last night Mom and I split a porterhouse. With it we had little HoneyGold potatoes (salad-size potatoes) and brussels sprouts. More often we have fresh fish.

I can't exercise much because of my back injury. I was thrown onto concrete by a client and messed up the whole tailbone area. Broken bone, etc., floating around in there.

My risperidone challenges me daily. It gives me a terrible appetite and I crave things. It goes in cycles.

I fight this madness the same way I killed my liking for fast food. I remind myself of the regret I feel when I've eaten something bad for me. I tell myself before I eat something bad that I'm going to regret it and this discourages me.

There is minor satisfaction in beating the craving but it is nowhere near as satisfying as junk food or fast food.

This is my day. I've shared it in an attempt to explain to certain members here, who discount the efforts of the overweight to fight this battle, that all is not as it seems.

Many of us are fighting this war all day, every day.

As I write this Mom is making vegetable soup for breakfast.