I to understand the feeling Rhap.. I go thru the feeling multiple times a day ... I find myself knowing that I am loved if it isn't by myself it is by God.. This allows me to conquer over the issues of self-esteem , fear, lonliness , anger , self defeating purposes ... I find grace within myself to know that I love myself and that I understand that other people are not like me and they show thier affection in other ways .. Also I have learned to lower my expectations of other people reactions .. This has helped me alot.. If i say " I love you " I do not expect " I love you " back it would be nice for them to reciprocate the gesture but knowing inside that they feel the same way is what I'm looking at

Hope it helps

Tymber

if ya wanna talk please pm and I will work something out to help-- no puter after 4pm pst