((((paperdoll))))

I'm sorry that your husband has deeply hurt you this bad. But like Kimmydawn said, it is wrong what he is doing. It is wrong that he is making you feel so bad, especially if you have done nothing to deserve this. I know that right now you feel lonely, and you long for the relationship that you had before .. but i think that the best thing for you now, is the distance. Try not to put yourself in the position that gives him that "power" over you, allowing him to hurt you. Seek some time to yourself and try and heal the wounds, rather then expose yourself to them.

By the way, welcome to pc! You really have come to the right place for a support network.

Take care of yourself
Jacqueline