As I sit here, drinking my morning coffee, staring out at the snow falling lightly to the ground, tv on in the background, not really paying attention, Im thinking over what you've posted and letting it blend in as I scan the past memories of times I would be in my car, looking out to the wide open with the overwhelming question "Why?" in my mind, rolling over and over, undermining every solid piece of truth I could drum up, wiping away every feeling of hope, washing out the 'truths' I thought I knew before.

When going back through the experiences I had, the getting up, falling back down, over and over and over again, I think about the mistakes I made, the forward progress I turned upside down because the steps I made forward became slippery again and no matter what truth I believed I had arrived at, it all fell down again like that unforgettable story of Humpty Dumpty.

When I say what you should do, when I give advice I hope will help, I do it knowing that nothing in these times will stick for long, that getting up again is the only way to make our way thru the muck and quicksand.

So I have no good words of advice for you today. Just to keep getting back up again. In time you will learn the mistakes you make in tearing up your own progress with doubt and fear. I can say one thing. How I wish I had not been my own biggest adversary in my own progress. Time is something you cant have back.