OH...oops I guess I wasn't very clear, huh... In my opinion/experience, it was difficult to allow myself gain the weight. It's like you KNOW what will be good for you, deep down, LOGICALLY, but ...it was very painful to allow the weight gain. That's why it was good that I was Inpatient during that process because I don't think I could have done it on my own...

But that is just me! I didn't have a good support system at home, and didn't have the ability to do it alone! Everyone is different!!!! I so totally want to be encouraging because I think the fact you WANT to recover is HUGE...I think at the time I went IP I wasn't wanting it yet...so that had a lot to do with the difficulty, maybe?