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I lent a hand and it got slapped
I meant for it to help not hurt
now I want to cut, I can feel the balde in my hand
I have triggerd myself into pian that I do not want to stop
I can taste the blood on my lips from the cuts
I can feel the pain ebbing and flowing down my arm into the sink
I can almost see the cuts.. oh it feels so nice to do it
THe senstation feels so good.
I feel off the wagon.
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I never meant to hurt, but I did. SO NOW I PUNISH MYSELF TONITE..

I will keep to my hole I will no longer help.

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The light is around me now
I see it so clearly now
I feel him in my heart
Lord God has set me free.
Let me rejoice in you
Let me be free
I love the lord God.
I have been Saved by your Grace and love today...04/11/04