the best image I can get out of this is not pain and punishment, it's hearing the echo of your voice coming back at you - the words you hear that way may strike you and help you see your own patterns

but (just my opinion) it's a pity it would be that way.

You do say that yr T cares for all her clients; so maybe she's not such a brick wall after all. Maybe it only feels that way. Still this sounds hard.

as for running away, they all go to the same school pretty much. sorry...

for me, I'd have to talk and talk and talk about it. In time it's bound to wear a hole in one of you, and hopefully some change for the better will enter in. hang in there.