im gonna take a break from the forums go try some stuff and get my mind right.
i think coming here and seeing my ex and seeing her struggle where i cant help her ... that hurts that i cant help.. so im gonna leave for awhile.

but im working again im doing well in my church and i get my first disibity check in apr or may .... i still hate my life and still miss my ex. but she has to be an adult and so do i.