a lot of very good questions Granite!

I have deliberately avoided thinking of my T as any kind of a mom (except of her own children, she has some). For me she's a pro, like a doctor. given the uniqueness of the work, that's about the closest thing I can call it.

Is there maternal transference, sure; right now I am sure she's going to punish me for the resistance I showed her last time.
in case you are reading this T, although you told me you don't read here, what a great opportunity this will be for you not to confirm my fears.

but do I want her to be my Mom, no.