MM, Venus recalls correctly. I thought it was impossible to ever be off meds, not just that..I thought it was impossible for me to be symptom free for a whole month if any time at all. I thought it was impossible to not have deep depression, mania, psychosis, healthy body weight, free from thoughts of starvation and actually love my body in it's strengths and weaknesses let alone like myself.. I thought it was impossible to not have anxiety attacks, flashbacks, all my symtoms from ptsd. I made many many very desperate posts here. I had virtually no hope left, maybe a very tiny seed of it which could either grow or shrivel. And I certainly did not have doctors who believed in me either, nor family for that matter, even my bf was convinced that was my future.

You never know what the future holds, or what you can do guide your future. That is why keeping doors open helps, because it removes the impossibles and replaces them with possibles. Impossibles fill our heads with fear, doubt, lack of belief in ones self, robs you of motivation and hope, but you need all those things to shape your future into what you want it to be.

It becomes life happening to you instead of living your life. There is a saying I really like " what appears to be coming at you is coming from you ", a few years ago that saying might have made me upset, or I might not have really understood the message. Especially when dealing with the mind, we so often feel like stuff is coming to us from the mind or to the mind, but it is coming from you, to you. That is really a good thing because we have little power of stuff coming at us, and plenty power over things coming from us. And when stuff does come at us we still have the power to choose how it affects us.