My suggestion to you would be to go to a financial debt specialist. They work with people who are so far in debt they can't dig their way out. They are able to budget your money & make it so you can't spend anything other than what your debt requires. They are the best thing to keep you honest until you get your financial situation together again.

I know when I am depressed, shopping makes me feel good....then I lookback & wonder where in the world did the money go & what did I actually get for it. My husband is also that way...& was that way with buyint Ty Beanie Babies. Now that I am packing for moving, I am finding out everything I have & wondering why I have 30 of the same one. They all look the same...just represent a different city. He is now being treated for adult ADD & he & I realize that is part of what adult ADD does too.

Just because we have reasons to compulsive shop....it doesn't make it right & it is good for you to find a professional that can help you stop & keep your money away from you paying only your bills until you are able to put your spending life back under your own control.

This is off subject, but I am wondering where your farm is? I am just now getting back in touch with the real estate agent I was working with in Kentucky where I am going to buy a farm for me & my horses....where I can finally retire to.

I can understand how you would fall apart if you lost your farm & horses. I love my horses so much & my america eskimo dogs, that I would just die if I didn't have them with me. I hope you can get your spending under control. I do know there is professional help available here in the USA for debt problems....That would be the very first place & would go to them immediately.....no losing your farm or horses....the live ones can give alot more love than models. Maybe you can sell some of your model horses over ebay or something like that to get some money while getting your spending under control.

Debbie