I printed out some pieces of this thread to take to my T. I was so panicky doing it that my heart felt like it was coming out of my chest (H asked me what was going on because my heart was pounding so hard he said he could see it moving my chest with each beat) and my hands were shaking. I handed the print out to him as soon as I sat down, and then said I needed to talk about the marriage counseling session from last week. He looked at it briefly and asked it I wanted to start with this, or the MC since I was really, really distressed about the MC session. I said MC of course. At the end of the session, T asked if he would keep the print out to read it more closely before we discussed it. I said okay, but still feel kind of queasy and wish I had gotten it back. And I get to sit with this until next week.

But I want to thank those of you who have been so brave in posting in this thread. I detest this whole subject and have a really hard time bringing it up on purpose. T has brought it up a couple of times, but lets me decide whether or not to continue the conversation. This thread was a boot in the rear to stop being such a coward and try to address this.