Okay...so SD said my new position seems to be stressing me. It is, but I'm plugging on.

There's another problem and it's really hard to admit. I've actually written the post 3 times already and deleted it, but this one is going to be the one (post #2 and #3 said the same thing).

H and I are having serious financial trouble. I went to put gas in my car this morning and a lady watched me put 3 cards into the pump and have them all decline. It upset me and the lady looked at me like I was nuts. Luckily, I had $20 cash on me, so only put $15 in. Hopefully that will get me to payday.

This is really stressing me out too. I had to tell T last week I couldn't pay her. She told me not to worry about it. I am debating cancelling my appointment tomorrow, but H is telling me I should go because of everything I've been through in the last week. I need to talk to T about the $. I can pay her Thursday if I can pay all the bills.

It's so embarrassing to me. I am used to having money.

Okay, I'm going to hit submit now.