Dear T,

I was really afraid of when I told you that I sometimes think about not being here anymore. Your reaction was too much and I kinda just wanted you to listen to me and look like everything was okay. You reacted so intensely that all I wanted to do was change the subject and not talk about it anymore. It made me feel like you were going to make me do something I didn't want to do if I continued talking about it.

I know that I shouldn't be afraid of you but I am. I want to tell you but I don't' think I can anymore.

Sorry T.