just back from T. thought i was going to throw up on her floor. am so dizzy and spacy and scared. i couldnt quite say it but i so nearly nearly did. i told her about waking up in a strange guys room by myself but couldnt tell her what had happened. i just couldnt do it. then started shaking and i guess flashbacks? was just seeing pictures like they were physically hitting me. why did she make me leave at the end of the session? i needed so badly for her to see how much i need her. she said she would hold me thourhg the tough stuff and now im by myself.