It's been about a month since I gave her the letter. At first I think she felt hurt, and shocked a little. Things seam to be getting better between us, minus a few hicuups. I think now she has a better understanding of me now and how depression affects me. She says she feels helpless, but I told her she helps me more than she knows. She gives me a reason to get out of bed and do what I need to do. I think that made her feel better about things. I find it easier to talk to her about this stuff now. I still fill some hesitation, but I don't feel all alone with it.

I started taking meds a couple weeks ago. I think they are starting to work, minus some sexual side effects. I feel it is easier to deal with things on them. I wouldn't say I'm happy or giddy. Maybe that is how it is suppossed to work. To lesson the symptoms of depression. I still need to get into therapy. The proc at my doctors office doesn't do evening appointments. I need to find one that does or at least does weekends or something.