Everything has gone wrong. I accidentally killed my hamster, and I failed a test. And then the teacher told us to lie to the other teacher about our grades. And I did a big project and then a bunch of it didnt save so I had to do it over. And I have to go to physical therapy three times a week ($25/visit) and my parents were going to pay and now they're not sure if they're going to. And so I don't really know what to do. And all the scholarships at school are due and I have no support system... so I tried to make an extra counseling appointment at my school but I was told if it wasn't an emergency I needed to deal primarily with my off campus counselor. And I hurt so bad... and I havn't even been able to cut because I just have so much pain inside I don't know where to start. And I feel so guilty and overwhelmed and I dont know how long I can do this without completely exploding.