If your worried about work, you can tell your employer you are taking an FMLA leave. This is a federal act that protects you from losing your job and health insurance during your leave. You are entitled to take up to 12 weeks a year. You qualify if you work for someone that hire more than 50 people, and you work for the employer full time. You can also have your doctor call your employer and tell them you are unable to work. I think you have to notify you employer in advanced though.

I went to the hospital once when I was feeling suicidal. What happened for me is I sat there for most of the night and about 3 am a psychiatrist came in to talk to me. They released me into the care of my sister and set up therapy.

Another time I felt suicidal, I talked to my therapist and did inpatient hospitalization. It wasn't at a regular hospital. It was a mental health place. I was safe from hurting myself there. They had group therapy and family visits if you want them. It was voluntary and you can be released 24 hours after you want.

Just try to keep yourself safe. There is help out there. Please be safe and take care of yourself.