Hello, and welcome. You did right to put the trigger sign up, though your post isn't nearly as dark as many we post.

<font color=blue>Sorry you are in the swirl of dark nothingness. I understand exactly where you are, I'm wondering why I haven't bumped into you in this darkness...

It isn't because of ME that I'm still here. It's because of my T.... because he has invested sooooo much time and caring for me, I give him the final chance to talk to me... and he strings me along in life (as I go kicking and screaming)

Posting here, and going to chat room and waiting for someone can help when you think you just can't go on. There are plenty of understanding ppl here.

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>