That's exactly how it's been feeling to me at the moment.

It gave me a chance to talk about some of the hurt, if nothing else. I went over how sad I was about her "if we were in a lifeboat together and a wave hit, I wouldn't be thinking of you" comment. I talked about how it (along with everything else) was just TOO much. I said how much it hurt when I tried to bring it up again and she just tried to rationalise what she'd said. She'd gone on about how our higher selves wouldn't behave in the the way we'd like to think in those situations and she talked about coping mechanisms.

Yesterday I went over how all I wanted was for her to hear how much it hurt. I told her how she hadn't stopped to listen to what I was trying to say. I said it hurt when she scoffed when I said I'd be thinking of her. "You'd like to think you would" she'd said. Ouch.

So I was going back over everything again, but she did at least listen, finally. I gave the example, if there was a big earthquake right now, is that seriously what you'd be doing. You wouldn't stop to think of me for a second? She didn't answer (perhaps she really wouldn't stop to think of me). I said she'd stop to think about people she loved in that sort of situation, in the way that I'd think about her.

That's probably the most direct I've been out loud about my feelings.