I don't mind a bit of conflict and the thing I missed out on was just someone noticing and caring (or the other word that I hate and can't say in relation to myself).

I do agree that anyone seeking absolute perfection in a relationship is going to be disappointed. Even great parents can't be perfect, and are bound to let their children down sometimes. Though I do think that many people who didn't have parents that provided love, caring, safety and stability do tend to go on to really crave some of those things.

I think I really could have done with a little more stability and safety from my therapist these past few months.