A little background:

Though my CC transcripts are mediocre (3.4, I was going through a lot with my sister's death and surviving an abusive relationship), I've been a great student at my 4 year institution. I have a 3.96 (I cried when I lost my 4.0), edit my school's lit journal, work two jobs in my field (English), was accepted to read one of my short stories at an International honors convention, have an internship, and have a leadership position in my school's only feminist organization. I haven't been worried about my future. I've been looking forward to graduating in December.

Last semester, I started having dizzy spells that left me unable to work. I had to leave that job after a month of medical leave. Days later, my mother attempted suicide while I was visiting her.

Though I always go to class, actively participate, do my reading, and turn in my work on time, I am struggling really hard with Arabic and Greek Theater (both honors courses). I'm looking at a B in both if I work for it. I feel like I am putting in so much effort, but I know that I can't work all of my waking hours anymore if I want to avoid getting ill again. I'm trying so hard, but I feel like I am going to ruin my GPA. I guess that I can kiss grad school (I was opting for U of M) goodbye

I hate feeling that I'm ruining everything. The only thing that I want to do with my life is teach at a university. I don't know why I'm suddenly not good enough.

I can't help but feel like the biggest failure in the world right now.