yeah but still people have like 500 or 600 friends on their facebook list and i feel like i can't keep up with these guys you know... it makes me sad because people won't take the initiative of adding me first... i feel like the world has always been unfair to me... they never talk to me first.. they always ask me the wrong questions when i'm mad... they never ask me how i'm doing when they see me teary-eyed... they just look up and that's it... i have always been an only child... the church has been terrible to me... i am upset with all these and feel like the world should not even exist... and wonder why didn't i die at birth? when people see me they don't smile... they just frown and return to their normal face..