I'm so sorry to hear of you break up. I don't know how serious you were about some of your comments do I feel compelled to reply. We all like a bit of man-bashing every now and then. I'm a man and have even joined in whilst supporting a friend when she broke up with her ex.

Firstly, it's really bad that he's strung you along for so long, especially knowing how much you felt for him. That's unfair. I can understand him trying to make himself love you as much as you loved him, but two years seems a long time to me.

You said "Men really don't want to hear that you feel so bad about yourself". I don't think that's just men. I'm sure your friends, family and colleagues would hate you to be so down on yourself. We all have things about ourselves that we don't like, but you are who you are and you need to try to accept that these things are you as well.

"Men don't know what the hell they want. Eff them. I will be alone for a very long time now."
Don't give up on yourself. Hell, from a personal level, if I had a lady who loved me as much as you loved your man, there wouldn't be anything I wouldn't do for her. Maybe I'm an old romantic, maybe it's because my social anxiety means I have never had a relationship, maybe it's because I'm .. erm ... more mature and want/need something deeper from a relationship.

I'm sure that once you are over this man, a true, decent man who will love you like you love them will be just around the corner.

"Time to work on me"
You go girl!
I believe a relationship isn't the be all and end all of life. If you have a fulfilling life and are happy, a good relationship can enhance that beyond measure.

Good luck. My thoughts are with you.