Last week I hit rock bottom. I hadnt self harmed in over 7 years, but found the idea so comforting I gave in. The police were called for a check in, and I was taken away in an ambulence. I self admitted into a hospital the following day. Unfortunately my stay wasn't as productive as I hoped. I was looking for guidance in some work related issues that triggered me and the best they could do was tell me I had a secondary diagnosis of Borderline Personality Disorder. They followed up with telling me there was nothing they could do to help me in the moment except up my dosages on my medications. Sometimes I feel so alone with my thoughts. I feel like I have to hide them to please others and to appear stable. I was so ashamed of myself. I hadnt done it in so long and even as i was doing it I knew it was not what I wanted to do. I am on my road to recovery. I will be leaving my job soon and will be focusing on getting myself mentally healthy. I thought i would be more together by my 28th year of life. Am I as alone in this as I feel?