Apparently I have some kind of "intrapersonal trauma" and lying allows me to escape reality, tigerlily. It's my way of creating a fantasy where my control is absolute. At least that is general consensus.
Also I know that people do suffer from many of my feigned illnesses, but offence was never my intention. I never made this a joke and I never found it funny, I just find it hard to be honest for the precise reason I've seen on this thread. People show only anger when you show them the real you. So I'll be sure to keep my mouth shut in the future.
I was forced to see a psych team because I was pretending to be psychotic for attention, Michael D. It eventually backfired and my girlfriend left as the lies, paranoia and control was too much for her. Than I confessed my lies and haven't another emotion since, so now I'm in therapy to work out what's wrong.
I get a lot of problems with my sense of self too, though I don't like it as you might.
Thanks Henry, I am trying to get help.