I take meds that have made me gain weight as well. Before I took them I was slender. Now, 13 years later, I'm fat. I'm 5'1" and I weigh ~210 lb. I'm only 14 pounds lighter than my dad, who is 6'3". I am constantly bombarded with comments from family about losing weight. My own mother told me that I look like a sumo wrestler when I walk sometimes. She used to call me flabby *ss, but I told her to stop, even though it was a joke, I didn't like it. She weighs a little less than me. My whole family has suffered from obesity. My dad used to weigh over 400 pounds. He has lost an incredible amount of weight. My aunt has lost over 50 pounds. But we're still fat. So why am I being harangued for it? Sure I'd like to lose some weight for my health, but it wasn't something I was obsessed with until people started saying stuff. I have a fallen arch, plantar fascitis and tendinitis in my one foot, which makes it painful to walk, much less exercise. I'm embarrassed to go to the gym at my apartment complex. So my T and I are coming up with some exercises that I can do at home. He's also giving me a diet plan aimed at easing depression and losing weight. He's coming up with stress relief techniques for me and meditations for me. Maybe that will help, because my self confidence has taken a nose dive. I feel like a gross fat pig. My employee ID card makes me look like I go from chin to double chin to chest. It looks like I have no neck. At least my mom was nice enough to say that it didn't look that bad. But I've overheard so many people dissing fat people. Sometimes it really isn't our fault. Sure I like to eat, but I don't eat that much. I just need help changing some of the things I choose to eat. I would think something was ok and it would end up not being ok to eat. Personally, I can't stand myself. I hate looking in the mirror. I used to punch myself in the stomach because I hated myself so much. I don't do that now, but I still hate myself. I'm going to a prayer meeting tonight and I'm going to ask that they pray for this for me. Lord knows I can use all the prayers I can get. And I might get to see him tonight, and he likes me for who I am, not what I look like.