Good, I am glad you are recognizing that. Yes, I do think getting back into therapy would be good for you. You need to find out that you are not as alone as you think you are, that there are "many" that feel lost, even those who grew up with both biological parents. Your age group and generation is struggling with alot of issues that come from parents that were very self absorbed and often about working and themselves more than focusing on "family" and the needs of the "children" in their lives. As I mentioned you are not much younger than my daughter and her generation was filled with children growing up in broken homes and family disfunctions. In fact I taught riding for 20 years and alot of my students were children who's parents were divorced and mixed up. So, it isn't just you that feels challenged, as I said, it is many in your generation.

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